Everything will be OK…

Three wise men and starIt has been awhile since I have written anything for the blog.

I have been gone on deployment with FEMA, the double hurricanes at the end of the summer and into fall. I didn’t even get home but right before thanksgiving.

Disaster always puts you in a different mind-set. It is all about survival. All of the things we take for granted on a daily basis become the most important things to us. Food, Water, Shelter, Electricity, Gas and Love. These are the things that are most needed. All of the other things fall away for a time. You are worried how you are going to eat and how your going to stay hot or cold with no electric and how you are going to get food if you have no gas or no gas to get away in the coming storm.

It is a tremendous amount of stress to be had by all. The people affected and the people going in after it happens to recover. You are running on adrenaline for weeks. The stress and the emotions are in the air, hanging like fruit. That energy has to be discharged and transmuted back into the earth. I feel like that is what natural disasters are in a sense. Clearing energies that need to be cleared off the lands. If we get full and heavy, can you imagine what the earth has to hold and transmute with all of our thoughts and emotions on a daily basis. Just think about that for a second…

One thing it makes you really aware of is life. How fragile it is and how it can be gone in an instant.

When I came home this time, I was fried. This hit me a bit harder than ones I had been on before, maybe because it was so long or so big. My part in it is small compared to others parts that they play, I am a baby in the disaster world.

One thing is for certain, you don’t realize how much of the energy that you take on until you go home and thaw out. I started trembling and buzzing about a week before I came home, I knew I needed a break. When you have empathy for people, you don’t realize that you put yourself in their shoes and feel what they FEEL and when you are seeing a lot of people and including the energy of the land, which I am just learning about as a healer, you really have no idea what goes on with the vibrations of everything.

I got a crash course this time.

I do the normal things that I have been taught to do for protection. Pray, visualize and essential oils but you cannot protect yourself from life. Life happens. Death happens. Disaster happens. To everyone. It really is about how you get through it.

One lady really stuck out in my mind and not for a reason that you would think.

She was really shaken up, and it’s not like I don’t see this ALL the time. I mean, everyone is upset, EVERY PERSON you come into contact with is UPSET.

This lady though was an interesting case. She had no damage to her residence, she was able to get out safely and she had no family members that were hurt. What she was upset about was her plants outside. They were demolished. She was sitting on her porch when I arrived, visibly shaking and crying. Her husband was trying to talk to her with no avail.

I sat down next to her on the porch. Her husband got up and left us, after I told them who I was. You could tell he didn’t know what to do with her and was losing patience with her upset as he rolled his eyes.

I let her cry and talk. She talked about how she had nursed these plants for years and years and that they were her babies and now they were all dead. DEAD, she said. I took her hand and said, ” Come and look at this plant. You see the roots are still there and there is green still on them. They are not dead but they have been through a trauma and will need lots of love, sun and water to recover but because the root is still there, it will still grow back, maybe better than before.”

She looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, ” So you think they will recover?” I said, ” Yes, I do, and these other plants will as well, they have strong roots from you taking care of them, their entire lives. The love that you give them will see them through.”

She stopped crying. I gave her a hug and said that statement that you always say. “Everything is going to be OK, even if you don’t think it is. Let the earth and the people heal and all will be well. It is just going to take some time.”

So many times we respond with anger in trauma because we are scared ourselves. Anger is secondary to fear.  I remember when my mother died. People told me that everything would be OK, I said, ” You all are stupid. It will never be OK.” I resisted the flow of life for a long time, rebelled, tried to keep my anger at life.

Today, it is OK and after many years, I can remember good things now. Allow the joy of life to come back and not just see the sadness, destruction and disaster. It’s important to get to the other side of trauma and not get stuck in it. You have to allow the trauma to be witnessed. It has to be felt and then worked through. You have to feel safe to release trauma. SAFE. This is something that after a disaster you don’t feel for a long while. People lose their entire lives that they have built. It is very traumatizing. It can affect everyone differently. It can be a small as losing a house plant and as big as losing a house. The remedy is all the same. LOVE. COMPASSION. The basic necessities of life that we all need.

We all have had a disaster in some form or another in our lives and usually, but not always, this is why we are not very nice.

So the next time you encounter a jack ass, try responding different and let me know how it goes. Maybe just try for Christmas. Try it with your family, who is always a trigger of all your unhealed stuff. Try it with your co-worker that drives you nuts. Try to put yourself in their shoes to see how really hard it is to be them, being a jack ass on a daily basis. Really it takes A LOT of energy to be that way even if some people make it look easy. ; )

Maybe, just maybe some hearts will be healed and who wouldn’t want that for Christmas right?….xoxo


(Image via Google Images)





Holistic Corner: Feeling it all-Brad Pitt

Photo of Mr. Pitt from: http://www.gq.com/story/brad-pitt-gq-style-cover-story

I woke up last night with a dream about Brad Pitt. When I was younger his life was a lot on my radar in dream, then it died down a bit as I evolved and learned from others. Everything is a reflection for you to grow.

Now that he was back, talking to me, I figured I had better do some research about what was bringing him into that realm again.

He has just done an article for GQ Style…along with some fantastic photos. The interview itself is raw and shows a part of celebrity that we don’t usually see. We get to see the perfection, not the imperfect, which is why celebrity is dangerous. It paints a life that isn’t real, a goal to obtain which is not realistic. This was vulnerable.

Whether he did it as a brilliant PR move or not is besides the point of it being symbolic of the male energy on the planet at this time and what is needed for it to evolve.

The male energy is really trying to come to grips with the female sides of themselves. This is in everyone, regardless of gender. Good or bad. You have to acknowledge and accept who you are. Then and only then can you rise from where you are to be better or change. If you continue to deny, you will stay stuck at the level of consciousness that you are.

Everyone is having to do this work. There was a couple of things he said about dealing with the inner emotions that are hidden and what he had uncovered to this point.

“I get up every morning and I make a fire. When I go to bed, I make a fire, just because—it makes me feel life. I just feel life in this house.” -Brad Pitt

Fire is very purifying. It is interesting that he said, “to FEEL life.” When you say the words feel, you are coming from the heart. When you smother the fire of the heart with addiction and denial you cannot feel anything. When you are smothering, you think that you cannot handle what is trying to come up or try not to deal with it.

“I do remember a few spots along the road where I’ve become absolutely tired of myself. And this is a big one. These moments have always been a huge generator for change. And I’m quite grateful for it. But me, personally, I can’t remember a day since I got out of college when I wasn’t boozing or had a spliff, or something. Something. And you realize that a lot of it is, um—cigarettes, you know, pacifiers. And I’m running from feelings. I’m really, really happy to be done with all of that. I mean I stopped everything except boozing when I started my family. But even this last year, you know—things I wasn’t dealing with. I was boozing too much. It’s just become a problem. And I’m really happy it’s been half a year now, which is bittersweet, but I’ve got my feelings in my fingertips again. I think that’s part of the human challenge: You either deny them all of your life or you answer them and evolve.”- Brad Pitt

Relationships are your biggest key to change, they are the igniter and he is right you can either answer them or not or evolve or not. It’s your choice but the opportunity has never been a better time to evolve. The energies have never been higher to help those that want to change, to open, to rise. But it takes work…work that most are struggling to do on their own and then here comes the igniter from your soul to push you. A divorce, a job loss, a death, a illness, some earthly suffering.

“Yeah, you start by removing all the decor and decorations, I think. You get down to the structure. Wow, we are in some big metaphor here now.…” – Brad Pitt

Demolition. Sometimes that is what is required for change. You are your house. Your insides are a reflection of what is outside. Sometimes you need to go back to the foundation of where it started in order for you to see where it needs to change. This is some serious work, and it is not always fun. Digging, digging down to see the beliefs that create the emotions that are being blocked and you find out that one belief has been running some of your show your entire life. That is a come-to-Jesus moment.

“You strip down to the foundation and break out the mortar. I don’t know. For me this period has really been about looking at my weaknesses and failures and owning my side of the street. I’m an asshole when it comes to this need for justice. I don’t know where it comes from, this hollow quest for justice for some perceived slight. I can drill on that for days and years. It’s done me no good whatsoever. It’s such a silly idea, the idea that the world is fair. And this is coming from a guy who hit the lottery, I’m well aware of that. I hit the lottery, and I still would waste my time on those hollow pursuits.” – Brad Pitt

Justice means-“just behavior or treatment.” -Google

We think that if we behave in a certain way, there is an expectation that others should also behave in that way. Life is unfair. We think we need to have justice and we don’t see that it turns into judgement and then who is right and wrong. Round and round we go, where it stops nobody knows. This is Karma. It will never end until you stop and look at yourself. You will see that part of the perception of another is actually you. By making another wrong, you make yourself right. You then win and what is it we get out of winning? Redemption. Self worth. Another day you don’t have to look at yourself and your own issues.

Am I saying that others always behave and act with integrity? No, but you can. This is true growth but you have to heal the shadows. The things that are eclipsed. The things that are hidden from our own view. You can only work on yourself.

“Sitting with those horrible feelings, and needing to understand them, and putting them into place. In the end, you find: I am those things I don’t like. That is a part of me. I can’t deny that. I have to accept that. And in fact, I have to embrace that. I need to face that and take care of that. Because by denying it, I deny myself. I am those mistakes. For me every misstep has been a step toward epiphany, understanding, some kind of joy. Yeah, the avoidance of pain is a real mistake. It’s the real missing out on life. It’s those very things that shape us, those very things that offer growth, that make the world a better place, oddly enough, ironically. That make us better.” – Brad Pitt 

“It’s a different world, too. We know more, we’re more focused on psychology. I come from a place where, you know, it’s strength if we get a bruise or cut or ailment we don’t discuss it, we just deal with it. We just go on. The downside of that is it’s the same with our emotion. I’m personally very retarded when it comes to taking inventory of my emotions. I’m much better at covering up. I grew up with a Father-knows-best/war mentality—the father is all-powerful, super strong—instead of really knowing the man and his own self-doubt and struggles. And it’s hit me smack in the face with our divorce: I gotta be more. I gotta be more for them. I have to show them. And I haven’t been great at it.”-Brad Pitt

Photo of Mr. Pitt from: http://www.gq.com/story/brad-pitt-gq-style-cover-story

We cannot be strong if we deny. Real strength comes from acceptance not being fake and I am not talking about whiny,  reality TV, crying drama. We see enough of that on a daily basis. Real heart emotions will transform you. Your female side will be strong. This is the only way to be balanced and it is a daily job. Look at who is reflecting your female and male sides back to you…

Mr. Pitt has this quote on his arm. “There exists a field, beyond all notions of right and wrong. I will meet you there.” -Rumi

This is hopefully the road that he is taking steps to become on his soul journey. The only way to be one within, is to be balanced with the male and female energies. This is the challenge and calling of us all. It is time to rise up to greatness, feel it all and heal the heart….xoxo

To read the full article on Brad Pitt here: http://www.gq.com/story/brad-pitt-gq-style-cover-story

Quotes from Brad Pitt via GQ and PHOTOGRAPHS BY 


Holistic Corner: Winds of Change


The picture above has been my view for almost two years. I have loved getting up every day and looking at a forest out my window, seeing the trees standing like they are family surrounding me with love. I will miss them.

Things are rocking and rolling energy wise for the last six months or maybe even longer. I have had many shifts especially in the way that things that are no longer working for me are headed out, or being re framed with a different perspective.

I had been sensing a move coming again and as I feel that energy, I always start looking intensely to things around me, the area that I have been in, the people that I have met and the things I have learned since I have been traveling. First to California and now here in North Carolina. West coast and East coast have totally different energies.

Things are changing and will continue to change in the world.

This is really what you want even if you don’t think you do. We always say, ” I want things to change.” with things that we don’t like in our life but we don’t want things to change that we love. Like losing a loved one, losing a friendship, our health, someone moving away, illness, etc.

This is earth and it is always in a constant state of flux. This quote came across my path this morning, that really hits it.

“Somehow, in the process of trying to deny that things are always changing, we lose our sense of the sacredness of life. We tend to forget that we are part of the natural scheme of things.” – Pema Chodron

As we grow as humans, things will always change in our life, this is why it is so important to live in the moment. Enjoy the moments you have with someone, the place where you are, things that you take for granted. Be appreciative for your LIFE.

My outdated thoughts has really been under fire lately within myself.  I have been digging within to change some long ingrained patterns. You cannot change your patterns unless you look at what created them in the first place, where they came from and what is causing you to think them.  One question to ask yourself is: Does that thought serve your highest self or the lower one?

Having to catch yourself in your thinking is sometimes seems difficult but once you start doing it, you will see all of the thoughts that might need to be changed or corrected. It can be quite overwhelming but just take it slow. We all have them, sometimes they are angry, judgmental or fear based and can be directed at yourself or others. They could have been created by getting hurt or might have been learned from someone else.

Thoughts create emotions.

Emotions create actions.

This time away from what I call home base has really taught me a lot. I have seen and done quite a few learning things to further my evolvement as a soul.  From watching people age, to watching energy psychic surgery, to spending time learning from a strong medicine woman, ocean trips, Louisiana, Washington DC and South Carolina. All of these things make me change on some level. Sometimes the growing seems to be difficult and hard. You get used to unhealthy patterns that are working for you on some level. Some of those patterns that you say need to be changed scare you when you really address getting rid of them. They are helping you in some way but in another way, they are keeping you stuck.

It is up to you to decide if they are hurting you or helping you grow. If things are not changing, look at your thoughts and emotions.

You can choose to take everything that has happened to you and further your growth or it can make you spin out of control and stop.

As one of my teachers leaves a house that I have also called home for over 10 years this week, I find myself feeling sad. Sad because I will not have anymore time with her there, it has been so special and such a learning for me but all things change and you can either go with the flow of it or you can stay stuck wishing that it didn’t. It is important to feel the sadness and let it out but know that you need to move with the change. Feel what you need to feel and release and then move on.

Swami house

I choose to grow and will have more special time with her somewhere else, who knows it might even be better?! That is the thing, you have to let go of things, allow them to change in order for new things to come in.

It is spring and this is exactly what happens in the seasons.

A Time for Everything:

“There is an appointed time for everything.  And there is a time for every event under heaven ~
2 A time to give birth, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace. -Ecclesiastes 3

May you plant new seeds of abundance, joy and happiness this spring and release all the dead, decaying things that no longer serve you….Happy Spring….xoxo

Holistic Corner: Rise up

11:11 RISE of the sun

As I sit here on 11:11 the most energy mastery of days, a lot has happened in the last week, with the presidential election and the upset of that, I am sure has everyone with feelings and minds at odds with each other.

Why was this election so important? Because it shows where we still need to work on ourselves and our nation.

It really showed the shadows of both sides of America. One had to come up stronger than the other.

It showed me that what comes up needs healing in ourselves and one another.

I didn’t particularly like either candidate but lesser of two evils were what it boiled down to in my  own mind. The lessor of the shadows coming up for healing.

Narcissist and liars both come to my mind when talking about either one. Both had good qualities and both had bad. One male and one female.

Just like us.

I notice that Americans are getting more vocal, we are demanding what we think is right, fair and just but at what cost to another human? Being right is subjective sometimes, based on past conditioning and experience.

It seems that we are collectively trying to learn and maintain balance between the two sides of polar opposites and we couldn’t have had it on larger scale than the presidential election.

As I write this, there has been riots and petitions. Upsets in almost every household, either on one side or the other.

How can we expect our government to come together for the good of everyone if we cannot think that way in our own minds?

Some are scared and have fear with good reason. Fear and the name of God has been mis-used to manipulate and control things for eons and I am sure will continue long after we are gone. There is always something to work on here in earth school.

The balance between light and darkness is a delicate one, all you can do is “rise” above it within your own self.

Service to yourself and service to others, there has to be some type of balance.

“Moral choices are discussed through the concept of polarity. Ra explains that there are two polarities: service to self, and service to others. These two polarities approximately relate to the everyday concepts known as evil and good, or selfishness and altruism.  

“Service to Others” is described in terms of an energy center configuration where the green-ray center radiates out toward other beings. This results are compassion, love feelings, and acts of service toward others.  

“Service to Self” is described in terms of an energy center configuration where the green-ray center is pointed mainly inward. This energy center configuration causes the entity to feel love for itself, but not for others. These feelings lead to self-serving intentions and actions, or “service to self.”


I thought it was interesting that Hillary wore purple for her address to her supporters. Red and Blue make purple. Unity. The blending of two colors, two sides and two visions.

“Purple is the most powerful visible wavelength of electromagnetic energy.  It’s just a few steps away from x-rays and gamma rays. Perhaps this explains why purple is associated with supernatural energy and the cosmos than with the physical world as we know it.

Taking all aspects of purple’s past and present into consideration, purple symbolizes magic, mystery, spirituality, the sub-conscious, creativity, dignity, royalty – and it evokes all of these meanings more so than any other color.” -www.colormatters.com

How do you within yourself bring unity? With understanding the Law of One. We are all ONE. We all come from the same God.

“Within The Law of One, “The Creator” is not described as an external entity, as Earthly religious texts present in order for men to understand. Instead, “The Creator” is rather an all pervasive intelligent energy, that is both within everything that exists and without, thus the indivisible oneness, that the philosophy describes. Underlying the perception of separation, utilized for learning, is an indivisible oneness.”- infiniteshift.wordpress.com

I had a dream election week of a solar eclipse and I was trying to take a photo of it. In my eye, I could see that the rays of the sun were all different colors coming in and they feed all of our energy fields, continually, all the time. To everyone else in my dream, the light was just white and they could see that it was “shadowed” by the eclipse but I kept asking, “Why can’t you see the colors?.” One answered, “I have no idea what you are talking about.”

What is an eclipse? An absence of light. In order to see a shadow the light has been eclipsed.

“an obscuring of the light from one celestial body by the passage of another between it and the observer or between it and its source of illumination.

“an eclipse of the sun” synonyms: blotting out, blocking, covering, obscuring, concealing, darkening; occultation

“a loss of significance, power, or prominence in relation to another person or thing.

“the election result marked the eclipse of the traditional right and center”

synonyms: decline, fall, failure, decay, deterioration, degeneration, weakening, collapse”


Think about what happened this week, a shadow took over to block the light. All of the hate, anger, fear, unjust, etc. came up to rear it’s head and show us what we are hiding in our shadow. It really isn’t about who won or lost, it’s about what is hiding in each of us, male or female. Hillary and Trump. You can point out what they are hiding, what are you hiding?

Look at how you have behaved this week after and before the election. What came up most for you? Was it the racist shadow? Was it the non-tolerance shadow? Was it the righteous shadow? What about the judgmental shadow? Was it the un-equality shadow? That is the shadow you need to work on within yourself. Whatever lower vibration you were expressing, is what you need to look at.

The morning of the election I had a song in my head when I woke up called, ”Rise Up” by Andra Day.

We all have to RISE UP, rise above the anger, the hate, the fear! RISE UP and look at your own shadow, your own darkness, your own eclipse.

Use this greatest time in American history to RISE above Hillary and Trump, they were only the messengers to show you, your own shadows.

Bring them out and transmute them with love into the light. You must love your shadow to transform it and then to change it.

That is where your free will comes in. You always have a choice to react with love or fear at any given moment.

My teacher is in India, helping children and she had this message for me a few days ago..

“Keep breaking through, loving you.”-Swami

I took that as I need to keep breaking through, loving myself. Keep breaking through all the shadows that block and eclipse the love for myself and love that I need to have for others…May we all RISE UP and keep breaking through……xoxo

Rise up- Andra Day

“Rise Up”

You’re broken down and tired
Of living life on a merry-go-round
And you can’t find the fighter
But I see it in you so we gonna walk it out
And move mountains
We gonna walk it out
And move mountains

And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
And I’ll rise up
High like the waves
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you [4x]

When the silence isn’t quiet
And it feels like it’s getting hard to breathe
And I know you feel like dying
But I promise we’ll take the world to its feet
And move mountains
Bring it to its feet
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you [4x]

All we need, all we need is hope
And for that we have each other
And for that we have each other
We will rise
We will rise
We’ll rise, oh oh
We’ll rise

I’ll rise up
Rise like the day
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I will rise a thousand times again
And we’ll rise up
High like the waves
We’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
We’ll rise up
And we’ll do it a thousand times again
For you oh oh oh oh oh [3x]








Music From The Heavens: Sweet Love


I have been a bit depressed lately. I think it’s depression. It’s nothing that I have felt before, kind of hopelessness. I was questioning many beliefs in my life. Cynical or critical. I was vacillating between the two and really looking at the mental thinking that created this.

I had started to exercise and take care of myself in January. I really try to eat good, take my vitamins and cut down on sugar. Of course I have certain times when I don’t do as well but for the most part I stay balanced in my life. Spiritually I am always working on myself, learning and growing. Mentally I am always looking for patterns that don’t serve me anymore to release or rewrite so that I can move past blocks. Emotionally, it takes a lot to shake me up now because I have done so much work there, I almost wish I could cry more to release some of the pain and frustration. Physically I have had a major surgery, I injured my shoulder while lifting and I have been down for about six weeks.

Basically I feel that I am in a bit of a funk. Things have been tough, not moving and the hits have kept on coming. I am trying to see something good and have hope that things will get better but I caught myself not thinking so and this is a place I have never been.

I have stopped believing. In a lot of things. Things that I believed in my whole life, I don’t now.

Simple Definition of belief:

  • : a feeling of being sure that someone or something exists or that something is true

  • : a feeling that something is good, right, or valuable

  • : a feeling of trust in the worth or ability of someone


When things are said to me and I don’t believe them because there have been a lot of times that what they have said didn’t happen, I had gotten my hopes up and they were dashed. I would say 85 percent. I didn’t know who to believe anymore, including myself. Someone would say, ” Oh I heard that on the TV or the radio.” I say, ” How do you know what they are saying is true? They could be manipulating the ad or the show to project something that makes them look better or sell something.” It amazes me how many people take what they hear and see in media as truth. Infomercials anyone? 

Really what is truth? Truth is something that you believe in and here on the planet, things will be ebbing and flowing with varying shades of truth and belief. Depending on where you are in your own evolution.

Simple Definition of truth:

One thing is a constant truth. When all else fails, the universe will be there to pick you up.

“Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life.”-John 14:6

God will be there to hold you, comfort you and be the love that you cannot be at the moment. You have to understand that you have to get through it. Some things you cannot get away from. Things that are uncomfortable, things that make you sad, things that upset you, everyone wants to feel and be happy and at peace ALL THE TIME. It’s so unreal.

It is not how the universe works and when you don’t acknowledge the other side, you deny it exists and that causes a whole new set of problems. Then it becomes about hiding that with an addiction, money, sex, food, etc. All so you don’t have to feel that way. The uncomfortable way.

“The universe is always unfolding exactly as it should. Sometimes it doles out experiences in the form of peace and serenity, and other times, its gifts come in the form of challenge and strife.

Your experiences are specifically suited for your personal evolution. Whether you are having the experience of anger, resentment, joy, happiness, or love, your experiences are uniquely designed to help you become who you were meant to be.

Hidden truth: The universe is always unfolding exactly as it should. The experience you are having at the moment is the one that you need, simply because you are having it.” 


In times of strife, you have all heard it. Lean on God. Lean on the invisible force of the creator of the universe. INVISIBLE. Who has a hard time with this? Who worries, frets, tries to control, uses will, uses force to make a situation or feeling go away? I know I am raising my hand…sometimes it works, but in this case it isn’t. You just have to go through it.

As much as I have learned, I am still a baby. I am still learning new things every day, new ways to challenge myself and my evolution. My evolving of the soul. 

Sometimes I don’t like the lessons, they make me uncomfortable but this is the only way we learn that love is sweet. The universe loves us. Just like a parent. Sometimes it is with tough love.

As I woke up this morning with “Sweet Love” in my mind as my message, I realized that it won’t always be tough love. It won’t always be depressing. It won’t always be hopeless and things will eventually be OK again. I just have to change my mindset and allow myself to believe that. I don’t have to believe that there will never be issues, I only have to believe that I can make it through whatever comes up because my spirit is stronger than my ego. The creator of the universe is stronger than tiny, baby me.

As I go through this challenge I will rely on my spiritual toolbox to get me through and lots of prayers for strength and to understand the meaning of, “This to shall pass .”  and allow myself to feel and reach for “Sweet Love.”……xoxo

Sweet Love-Anita Baker

“Sweet Love”

With all my heart I love you baby
Stay with me and you will see
My arms will hold you, baby
Never leave, ’cause I believe[Chorus:]
I’m in love, sweet love
Hear me calling out your name, I feel no shame
I’m in love, sweet love
Don’t you ever go away, it’ll always be this wayOh, heart has called me closer to you
I will be all that you need
Just trust in what we’re feeling
Never leave ’cause baby, I believe

In this love sweet love
Hear me callin out your name I feel no shame
I’m in love sweet love
Don’t you ever go away
It will be always this way

No stronger love in this world
Oh, baby no, you’re my man, I’m your girl
I’ll never go, wait and see, can’t be wrong
Don’t you know this is where you belong

Sweet this dream how lovely baby
Stay right here, never fear
I will be all that you need
Never leave, ’cause baby, I believe

In this love sweet love
Hear me calling out you name
I feel no shame I’m in love sweet love
Don’t you ever go away
It will always be this way

Oh no no no no
No no no sweet love umm hmm
So sweet, so sweet, so sweet



Music From The Heavens:Let your love flow


There’s a reason for the sunshine sky
And there’s a reason why I’m feelin’ so high
Must be the season when that love light shines
All around us

I really feel like my guides have such a sense of humor. I get song lyrics that I have to look up on Google, try to figure out the message and then write a blog…I love it!

This song came out in 1976. I was 7.

As I contemplated this message of song from the heavens, one thing popped up in my mind. How many times do we block the flow of love? or anything for that matter? Why can’t we let love flow?

Maybe you block your love from someone to protect yourself.

Maybe you block your true feelings because you are ashamed or think that someone will laugh at you.

My teacher and I were talking the other day of blocks on your path to awareness. One of them is control.

“Love cannot flow where control is.” -Swami

Look at the water, you can block the flow but it just finds another way because it is nature and that is the way nature works, you can either get out-of-the-way or you can try to block it and then end up hurting yourself and maybe another.

Another thing that we block is feelings and they can really affect the heart. Think about this, a heart attack is “blocked” arteries.

“Heart attack is the death of a segment of heart muscle caused by the loss of blood supply. The blood supply is usually lost because a coronary artery, one that supplies blood to the heart muscle, has a blood clot, a blockage (coronary thrombosis).Apr 8, 2016″

Honestly, there has to be a balance. You cannot just throw your love at someone who cannot love themselves. This will end up with you getting your heart hurt and then placing a “block” on it because you don’t want to get hurt again.

Once the block is there, it takes some time to remove. You must have emotional awareness within yourself and even then sometimes you will still get wounded but once you realize that your main vibration is LOVE, it will get much easier to come from a place like this all the time. Not to get offended by others who cannot support the awareness of that frequency.

It’s hard for them, because they have been out of that energy for so long, the energy of anger,sadness, fear, jealously, etc. is much of an easier place for them to be. It’s comfortable for them. In reality we all have issues in some place or another. That’s why we are here, to clear out what is not God’s vibration.

Then you may come along with your bright light of love and they probably say inside to themselves, ” UGH, here is that girl again that is too LOVING. What is wrong with her.”

Nothing. Not a thing. There is nothing wrong with them either. They are where they are and that is their path. Allow them to be where they are and you continue on your own.

TD Jakes had a great quote I have never forgot. It was when he was speaking to Oprah.

“You have to meet people at the level that they are and the level that they can receive it.”-Oprah

“Some parents are not capable of giving an outpouring of love to their children because they have a ‘pint-sized capacity’ and cannot fill those who have a ’10-gallon capacity to love.” -TD Jakes

Do you have a 10-gallon capacity?

Do you have a 10 gallon capacity when it comes to yourself?

So the question would be, can you love yourself when you are broken, when you are unlovable, when you are angry, when you are ugly?

Do you withdrawal your love when things get tough with others?

Do you withdraw your love when you are ashamed of yourself or someone else?

Do you have unrealistic expectations of others and yourself?

Maybe for this month, this minute or this hour, let the love flow.

Let the love flow through you, for YOU. Try to absorb as much as you can hold. You can then see where love is being restricted within yourself. Watch where the resistance comes up to being loved. Then you will see the block of protection that needs healing.

“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.”-I John 4:8

As much love as you are giving another, give that much to yourself. Most of us talk to ourselves in a way that we would never allow someone else to speak to us or anyone that we love.

Watch your inner dialogue and how unloving it is.

Just think about how you think about other people? What is the inner dialogue saying?

See where your own mind puts a block up in your heart.

See yourself the way God sees you and practice learning to let your love flow…..xoxo

Let your love flow-The Bellamy Brothers

“Let Your Love Flow”

“There’s a reason for the sunshine sky
And there’s a reason why I’m feelin’ so high
Must be the season when that love light shines
All around usSo let that feelin’ grab you deep inside
And send you reelin’ where your love can’t hide
And then go stealin’ through the moonlit nights
With your lover

Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams
And let your love show and you’ll know what I mean
It’s the season

Let your love fly like a bird on a wing
And let your love bind you to all living things
And let your love shine and you’ll know what I mean
That’s the reason

There’s a reason for the warm sweet nights
And there’s a reason for the candle lights
Must be the season when those love rites shine
All around us

So let that wonder take you into space
And lay you under its loving embrace
Just feel the thunder as it warms your face
You can’t hold back

Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams
And let your love show and you’ll know what I mean
It’s the season

Let your love fly like a bird on a wing
And let your love bind you to all living things
And let your love shine and you’ll know what I mean
That’s the reason

Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
And let your love grow with the smallest of dreams
And let your love show and you’ll know what I mean
It’s the season

Let your love fly like a bird on a wing
And let your love bind you to all living things
And let your love shine and you’ll know what I mean
That’s the reason

Just let your love flow like a mountain stream
And let your love grow”

Lyrics from: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bellamybrothers/letyourloveflow.html


Music From The Heavens: Elvis-An American Trilogy

Elivis Presley Via Google Images

I woke up this morning with Elvis singing in my ear. Well, maybe not the soul of Elvis but one of my guides gets my attention with Elvis songs.

Elvis had such a commanding voice, such a strong presence when he sang. His voice gives me chills every time I have heard it over the years and now, in dream time, his voice comes with usually a message for me about something major that will hit or has hit the collective energy. A lesson it seems for the greater good of the planet.

Something seen as a horrific event and hits at the hearts of all.

This last weekend the earth has been hit with yet again an unjust crime of massive prejudice. In Orlando, Fl. 49 lives taken by one man.

49 beautiful souls paid the price and sacrifice to bring awareness to the unjust feelings and beliefs towards the LGBT community.

Yesterday I was talking to my husband and I said, ” What if this had to happen because the world has to understand that a soul is a SOUL. Regardless of race, color or sexual orientation.”

It’s a hard way for us to get the lesson, don’t you think?

I cannot speak of knowing about every shooting that has occurred and all the souls that have sacrificed their lives, I can only speak of what I see with this particular one and what I received last night about it.

An American Trilogy was the song I heard. Sung by Elvis.

I had to look it up, Elvis died when I was a child, so a lot of his songs I am not familiar with, but as I started reading about this song, the origins of it, I started to understand the message that I received.

An American Trilogy” is a song arranged by country songwriter Mickey  Newbury and made popular by Elvis Presley, who began including the song as part of his regular concert routine in the 1970s, thereby making the song a showstopper. It is a medley of three 19th century songs—”Dixie“, a blackface minstrel song that became the unofficial anthem of the Confederacy since the Civil War; “All My Trials“, originally a Bahamian lullaby, but closely related to African-American spirituals, and well-known through folk music revivalists; and “The Battle Hymn of the Republic“, the marching song of the Union Army during the Civil War.”- Wikipedia

I am not a history buff, if I need to find out something about a certain time era, I look it up. So I looked up the Civil War and here is what caught my eye.

American Civil War via Google Images

“The American Civil War was a civil war in the United States fought from 1861 to 1865. The Union faced secessionists in eleven Southern states known as the Confederate States of America. The Union won the war, which remains the bloodiest in U.S. history.” Wikipedia

Hmmm ring any bells? I would suggest you read this article.

“The Los Angeles Times, like many outlets, called it “the deadliest in American history.”-Laura J. Nelson


The point I am trying to get at is, the murder of innocent lives always has a cause and usually, not always, the cause is a judgement against them as that they are doing something WRONG.

Some feel like they are the executioners of justice and they really believe that in their small minds. This is a power-hungry ego run amok. How many more have to die for us to get this.

“Judge not, that ye be not judged.

For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.

And why behold-est thou the moat that is in thy brother’s eye, but consider-est not the beam that is in thine own eye?” Matthew 7 : 1-3

Here is some more about the American Civil War.

“The war had its origin in the factious issue of slavery, especially the extension of slavery into the western territories. Four years of intense combat left 620,000 to 750,000 soldiers dead, and destroyed much of the South’s infrastructure. The Confederacy collapsed and slavery was abolished in the entire country. The Reconstruction Era (1863–1877) overlapped and followed the war, with its fitful process of restoring national unity, strengthening the national government, and guaranteeing civil rights to the freed slaves.” Wikipedia

CIVIL RIGHTS. Yes, read that again. EVERYONE has CIVIL RIGHTS.

Here are some words to ponder.

EVERYONE is a SOUL. Whether YOU agree with how they live their life or not.

You are not responsible for anyone but yourself when you die but you will be responsible, in your life review, of what you did, how you felt and what you thought in this life. THIS life, the one that you are living in this form, on this planet, at this time.

Check yourself when you are judging another as right or wrong. It is not our responsibility, unless it HURTS another human being, to take action of lifestyle choices that another makes.

Worry about your own life, your own heart. Make sure your heart is right.

I always say, ” Would I be able to stand in front of Jesus and have him say, “Well done my good and faithful servant?” Where did I show judgement instead of love?

Most of the time I fall short. There is always some area that needs more love, more understanding and more compassion. More fruits of the spirit.

Gays are not the new blacks. Please…just love them. Look into your heart and see where you cannot accept yourself, where you think you are better than another, that you know better than someone else.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.  By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:34-35

Gays, Mexicans, Whites, Italians, Transgender, Bisexual, Irish, Lesbians, etc. are all souls coming to live out their Karma and their soul purpose this life, to improve the planet.

49 SOULS gave lives last weekend. Let their deaths not be in vain. We can take away guns, we can impose limits and justice but we cannot do another’s inside heart work. We cannot prevent anything except our own actions BEFOREHAND, anything else is an afterthought of what could we have done or can do to prevent this from happening again.

It’s a SPIRITUAL crisis. It’s a CIVIL rights crisis.

Unless the two can come together, this will keep happening. Until we understand that a life is a life regardless of what skin it is in, this will keep happening.

Pray for your own soul. Pray for the darkness in your OWN heart.

Learn to accept others with unconditional love, and maybe, just maybe, you will learn to accept yourself in the same way. What works for you might not work for them.

Should you be angry? No. Should you try to change them? NO. Let them BE. Maybe ask yourself why you feel the need to change them?

They are responsible for their own lives and karma that follows. SAVE yourself.

Trust me, if you focus on yourself, you have more than enough to work on for the rest of your life on the planet.

America is the land of the free, home of the brave. A melting pot.

When are we going to come together and be the forerunners for the rest of the world?

Question why you hate, why you want to hurt another..It really has nothing to do with God, it has to do with your own soul. Believe in God or don’t believe in God. I choose to believe in God, I choose to love one another.

I am no better than anyone else. I am on a path the same as you. Maybe you or I am a little farther on that path but we are ALL on a path, we choose to express individually how we are. Stop living in the “Old” testament and start living in the “New” one.  The Christ consciousness.

Seems perfect timing with the Fourth of July coming up.

“I pledge allegiance to the Flag of the United States of America, and to the Republic for which it stands, one Nation under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all.”-Wikipedia


Elvis An American Trilogy


Update: Also a synchronicity, the estate of Elvis is releasing a new album of his works. This just came over the news wire yesterday..: )