Holistic Corner: Weight not, want not.

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Weight gain and loss has always been a challenge for me, especially as I have gotten older. I remember when I used to be able to eat salad at night and lose weight every day. Not anymore. Last year I started to notice my fasting blood sugar was up, I thought it was a fluke. I basically ignored it. 
 
I have had a high emotional/physical stressful life, fear and panic, especially when I was younger. As I have gotten older and learned how to navigate better I don’t have the swings that I used to but years and years of stress have taken their toll on me. Disaster work is also a stress on every level. It is all how we process and I was not taught as a child how to deal with any kind of stress very well. I have had to parent myself to learn how to navigate life differently. This has all made a perfect storm for weight and protection.
 
Your family does the best it can with the knowledge and awareness they have at the time. It is up to you to change what is not working for you anymore.
 
At the beginning of the year, I cut out all sugar pretty much. No carbs that were not good carbs and by good I mean only vegetables. Good carbs were making me gain. I tried Paleo, teas, shakes and none of it made a dent and caused me to gain weight. It seemed like everything I ate caused me to gain and now my A1C was 6.0
I tried to exercise and do the body builder diet. 8 months later, I felt better but hadn’t lost a freaking pound and it’s not like I don’t work on myself with emotions, mental and spiritual, I do it every day. It’s been very frustrating.
 
I am not a mediator or an avid exerciser. I try to do those things because I know they are really good for me but it is a self effort and a discipline for me. I have to force myself.
 
This a great article about insulin resistance by Dr. Christiane Northrup, who I have read for years. She is a way shower. I appreciate all her work and trials to give women an opportunity to do things differently. These people get ridiculed a lot. When you choose to go and do things against the norm, you get tons of crap. People make fun of you, they think you are crazy, talk about you behind your back and question everything you do. You just have to keep going and she has. I understand and really, really appreciate it. This has been me, my entire life. 
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In January I decided to give it another go. I don’t want to have diabetes, heart disease, etc. I, honestly, just want to walk out of my body when I am done..lol..I don’t want to be sick, ill or have a drama trauma to take me out. While I am here I want to live the best life I can and be the best person I can be. I work my ass off at this. It is not an easy path. Easy paths are much more, well, EASY…that is not who I am.
Now it is March and even if it is coming off really slow. I have lost 14 pounds and reduced my A1C to 5.5. I am really tired of worrying about my weight. I mean seriously, on my tombstone it will say, ” She’s tried REALLY hard to lose weight her entire life.” Enough. IS. Enough.
I will keep doing everything I know how to do, to be the best I can on every level. Ask for help and support. I will love me. Cherish me. Tell myself I am beautiful. Treat my body good. Open my heart. Change my mind and LIVE.
I hope you will do the same….xoxo
Photo of Dr. Northrup from her Facebook page
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Holistic Corner: Heart Sick

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I am sad today and honestly, flipping angry. On Valentines Day and the start of Lent no less, we had another mass shooting.
 
What can we do to stop this from happening? Can we stop it?
 
Have we as a culture created this by blocking feelings, creating games and movies that show you how to blow another’s head off? Oh fun right? War, violence, abuse. So great(not really) to watch on TV or at the movies but when the fake becomes real, everyone is wondering WHY.
 
Why are people so upset that they feel the need to take another life. Where are we missing the warning signs and are we in denial or just ignorant. Should we be following up with people that are showing signs of craziness? Rage? Hostility? Revenge? Is it up to other people looking on or work we should be doing in ourselves and our communities. Or both? Where is the disconnect with the heart?
 
Mass shootings are becoming more and more often. I remember Columbine. I can tell you exactly where I was that day and what I felt. Heartsick.
 
Sure we can put metal detectors in schools, create stricter guns laws,etc but really the problem is not with the weapon, it is only a tool of the evil inside. The evil that has festered and grown to where it takes on it’s own identity and then has no remorse, no love and no light left. Darkness. Pain. Rage. Revenge.

19 For out of the heart come evil thoughts—murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. 20 These are what defile a person; but eating with unwashed hands does not defile them.” Matthew 15: 19-20

 
To make matters worse we ignore those that are weird, crazy and just don’t make sense. We drug them, jail them and put them in holes to punish them but we never seem to figure out WHY they are doing it in the first place. Most of the time you cannot even ask one because they are already dead. They commit suicide just so they won’t have to deal with Earth justice. It is sickening and so unfair.
 
Our leaders spend so much time fighting each other and with stupid stuff that doesn’t matter, it is a joke. We have to start being our own leaders in our own areas and lives. WE MATTER. WE MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
 
Weed out the darkness in your own life and for God’s sake when you see something or someone that seems to be not OK, SAY SOMETHING to someone. Don’t just run and ignore what is happening. CARE about your fellow man, not just the people in your circle.
 
I refuse to believe that we cannot make changes, even if it just within your own SELF. Do your own inner work. If you don’t know how, find someone to help you. There are thousands of teachers, preachers, life coaches and therapists. Stop the excuses about, “This is just the way I am.” You just aren’t trying hard enough. Look within your own family. LOOK WITHIN YOUR OWN HEART. Don’t let the darkness win.
 
When we really want something and the desire is there you can find a way. If you have no money, find someone who will work with you, trust me there are plenty of people that will do that. I know because when I was struggling, I found them.
 
I also know that you have to want to change. Whatever the area and you cannot ever give up. Never stop fighting to make the world a better place and the world within yourself. Never give up.
 
My thoughts and prayers are with those that lost lives and the ripple effect that it caused yesterday…I am so sorry for your loss….xoxo

Always evolving and barking at the moon.

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For the last few days coming up onto this eclipse, lots of hidden emotions are coming to light. That is what the full moons and especially the eclipses are for. Lighting up the night. Stuff that is hidden, keeping you stuck. Emotions, patterns, behaviors,etc.

I have had something happen in my life in the last few weeks that upset me. Really more than I care to admit. My Jeep got wrecked. I feel like that car commercial that says, ” I named my car Larry and I am upset that he is gone.” This is how I have felt. Totally out of my control.

That car has been around with me for over 10 years and if this hadn’t happened I probably wouldn’t have gotten rid of it till it died. Circumstances beyond my control happened and took all my well laid plans and threw them out the window with a laugh.

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”  Proverbs 19:21

I had to make a decision whether I wanted to keep the car or not. Was the car serving my highest good and was it still serving what I needed it for? or was it time to let it go. These are the questions that I have been thinking about the last few days. Everything has energy, could be living or not. Your energy goes into physical things and I was really attached to this car.

I was looking at the energy I associated with this car and why was I having such an issue? This car makes me feel safe. I have taken it to many disasters and one side of the country to the other, through a hurricane and it never let me down or stranded me. It was my home when I wasn’t at home. I have all my safety stuff in it. Food, water, blankets, etc.

Not only did it get wrecked but then it got broken into. I felt that was not a fitting end to the car that was by my side for 10 years. It didn’t deserve such an ending to it’s journey with me.

I tried to look at it like this. If it hadn’t been sacrificed, maybe the person that was driving it would have been hurt. Maybe the car took the energy so the person didn’t have to. That seemed to make me feel better. It actually still was doing it’s job of protector, it just wasn’t with me.

I could have gotten the car fixed. I had enough money to do so but with 179,000 well drove miles I had to think about what was ahead for me and it. Lots more driving, lots more disaster. I really need a car with less miles on it. I had an opening to change.

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CHANGE…..There is that word.

When the universe gives you a choice and either way could be taken then you choose and have to live with the consequences. I get stuck here a lot. I get afraid to make a “wrong” choice and as I say that I know there are no “wrong” choices only learning opportunities. My 48 year old self knows that but there is a younger, emotional self that rears it’s head when things like this happen.

The one that made decisions that hurt her deeply so there is always a warning in my ego that says, “Watch out this could be a disaster.” Did you look at every angle? Are you making the best choice for everyone concerned? Are you SURE you are doing the “right” thing?

So I pray when I get like this. I ask for guidance because I cannot get out of my own way and I need help. I look for guidance in small things. Repeated phrases, dreams, words upon waking and then I ask for another’s opinion of someone I trust. Then I weigh all that and make a choice.

I chose to let the car go. Just like you have to make choices sometimes that aren’t fun. They can hurt people and they can hurt yourself but you don’t know unless you choose. One way or another.

This eclipse falls in when all this is happening. Some things that happen in your life are a reflection to get you to move and change even when you don’t want to. If you look under things you will see that. The wreck was just not a wreck. The jeep was not just a Jeep to me. It stood for somethings that I need to still keep working on to build stronger within myself.

Outside and inside. God is always working to evolve you and you can be thankful for that.

So tomorrow I am going to clean out my car and thank it for it’s service in my life. I am grateful for things that make me feel safe and secure and I am really very grateful for my jeep. I am also grateful for the energy in the universe that helped me choose this car so long ago and I pray for guidance when picking a new one.

The universe will always be there and have your back even with small or large choices in life. You just have to ask. Onward and upward. Always evolving…Life goes on.

That is my trigger in healing for this full moon, what is happening with you? …xoxo

 

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Everything will be OK…

Three wise men and starIt has been awhile since I have written anything for the blog.

I have been gone on deployment with FEMA, the double hurricanes at the end of the summer and into fall. I didn’t even get home but right before thanksgiving.

Disaster always puts you in a different mind-set. It is all about survival. All of the things we take for granted on a daily basis become the most important things to us. Food, Water, Shelter, Electricity, Gas and Love. These are the things that are most needed. All of the other things fall away for a time. You are worried how you are going to eat and how your going to stay hot or cold with no electric and how you are going to get food if you have no gas or no gas to get away in the coming storm.

It is a tremendous amount of stress to be had by all. The people affected and the people going in after it happens to recover. You are running on adrenaline for weeks. The stress and the emotions are in the air, hanging like fruit. That energy has to be discharged and transmuted back into the earth. I feel like that is what natural disasters are in a sense. Clearing energies that need to be cleared off the lands. If we get full and heavy, can you imagine what the earth has to hold and transmute with all of our thoughts and emotions on a daily basis. Just think about that for a second…

One thing it makes you really aware of is life. How fragile it is and how it can be gone in an instant.

When I came home this time, I was fried. This hit me a bit harder than ones I had been on before, maybe because it was so long or so big. My part in it is small compared to others parts that they play, I am a baby in the disaster world.

One thing is for certain, you don’t realize how much of the energy that you take on until you go home and thaw out. I started trembling and buzzing about a week before I came home, I knew I needed a break. When you have empathy for people, you don’t realize that you put yourself in their shoes and feel what they FEEL and when you are seeing a lot of people and including the energy of the land, which I am just learning about as a healer, you really have no idea what goes on with the vibrations of everything.

I got a crash course this time.

I do the normal things that I have been taught to do for protection. Pray, visualize and essential oils but you cannot protect yourself from life. Life happens. Death happens. Disaster happens. To everyone. It really is about how you get through it.

One lady really stuck out in my mind and not for a reason that you would think.

She was really shaken up, and it’s not like I don’t see this ALL the time. I mean, everyone is upset, EVERY PERSON you come into contact with is UPSET.

This lady though was an interesting case. She had no damage to her residence, she was able to get out safely and she had no family members that were hurt. What she was upset about was her plants outside. They were demolished. She was sitting on her porch when I arrived, visibly shaking and crying. Her husband was trying to talk to her with no avail.

I sat down next to her on the porch. Her husband got up and left us, after I told them who I was. You could tell he didn’t know what to do with her and was losing patience with her upset as he rolled his eyes.

I let her cry and talk. She talked about how she had nursed these plants for years and years and that they were her babies and now they were all dead. DEAD, she said. I took her hand and said, ” Come and look at this plant. You see the roots are still there and there is green still on them. They are not dead but they have been through a trauma and will need lots of love, sun and water to recover but because the root is still there, it will still grow back, maybe better than before.”

She looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, ” So you think they will recover?” I said, ” Yes, I do, and these other plants will as well, they have strong roots from you taking care of them, their entire lives. The love that you give them will see them through.”

She stopped crying. I gave her a hug and said that statement that you always say. “Everything is going to be OK, even if you don’t think it is. Let the earth and the people heal and all will be well. It is just going to take some time.”

So many times we respond with anger in trauma because we are scared ourselves. Anger is secondary to fear.  I remember when my mother died. People told me that everything would be OK, I said, ” You all are stupid. It will never be OK.” I resisted the flow of life for a long time, rebelled, tried to keep my anger at life.

Today, it is OK and after many years, I can remember good things now. Allow the joy of life to come back and not just see the sadness, destruction and disaster. It’s important to get to the other side of trauma and not get stuck in it. You have to allow the trauma to be witnessed. It has to be felt and then worked through. You have to feel safe to release trauma. SAFE. This is something that after a disaster you don’t feel for a long while. People lose their entire lives that they have built. It is very traumatizing. It can affect everyone differently. It can be a small as losing a house plant and as big as losing a house. The remedy is all the same. LOVE. COMPASSION. The basic necessities of life that we all need.

We all have had a disaster in some form or another in our lives and usually, but not always, this is why we are not very nice.

So the next time you encounter a jack ass, try responding different and let me know how it goes. Maybe just try for Christmas. Try it with your family, who is always a trigger of all your unhealed stuff. Try it with your co-worker that drives you nuts. Try to put yourself in their shoes to see how really hard it is to be them, being a jack ass on a daily basis. Really it takes A LOT of energy to be that way even if some people make it look easy. ; )

Maybe, just maybe some hearts will be healed and who wouldn’t want that for Christmas right?….xoxo

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Holistic Corner: Feeling it all-Brad Pitt

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Photo of Mr. Pitt from: http://www.gq.com/story/brad-pitt-gq-style-cover-story

I woke up last night with a dream about Brad Pitt. When I was younger his life was a lot on my radar in dream, then it died down a bit as I evolved and learned from others. Everything is a reflection for you to grow.

Now that he was back, talking to me, I figured I had better do some research about what was bringing him into that realm again.

He has just done an article for GQ Style…along with some fantastic photos. The interview itself is raw and shows a part of celebrity that we don’t usually see. We get to see the perfection, not the imperfect, which is why celebrity is dangerous. It paints a life that isn’t real, a goal to obtain which is not realistic. This was vulnerable.

Whether he did it as a brilliant PR move or not is besides the point of it being symbolic of the male energy on the planet at this time and what is needed for it to evolve.

The male energy is really trying to come to grips with the female sides of themselves. This is in everyone, regardless of gender. Good or bad. You have to acknowledge and accept who you are. Then and only then can you rise from where you are to be better or change. If you continue to deny, you will stay stuck at the level of consciousness that you are.

Everyone is having to do this work. There was a couple of things he said about dealing with the inner emotions that are hidden and what he had uncovered to this point.

“I get up every morning and I make a fire. When I go to bed, I make a fire, just because—it makes me feel life. I just feel life in this house.” -Brad Pitt

Fire is very purifying. It is interesting that he said, “to FEEL life.” When you say the words feel, you are coming from the heart. When you smother the fire of the heart with addiction and denial you cannot feel anything. When you are smothering, you think that you cannot handle what is trying to come up or try not to deal with it.

“I do remember a few spots along the road where I’ve become absolutely tired of myself. And this is a big one. These moments have always been a huge generator for change. And I’m quite grateful for it. But me, personally, I can’t remember a day since I got out of college when I wasn’t boozing or had a spliff, or something. Something. And you realize that a lot of it is, um—cigarettes, you know, pacifiers. And I’m running from feelings. I’m really, really happy to be done with all of that. I mean I stopped everything except boozing when I started my family. But even this last year, you know—things I wasn’t dealing with. I was boozing too much. It’s just become a problem. And I’m really happy it’s been half a year now, which is bittersweet, but I’ve got my feelings in my fingertips again. I think that’s part of the human challenge: You either deny them all of your life or you answer them and evolve.”- Brad Pitt

Relationships are your biggest key to change, they are the igniter and he is right you can either answer them or not or evolve or not. It’s your choice but the opportunity has never been a better time to evolve. The energies have never been higher to help those that want to change, to open, to rise. But it takes work…work that most are struggling to do on their own and then here comes the igniter from your soul to push you. A divorce, a job loss, a death, a illness, some earthly suffering.

“Yeah, you start by removing all the decor and decorations, I think. You get down to the structure. Wow, we are in some big metaphor here now.…” – Brad Pitt

Demolition. Sometimes that is what is required for change. You are your house. Your insides are a reflection of what is outside. Sometimes you need to go back to the foundation of where it started in order for you to see where it needs to change. This is some serious work, and it is not always fun. Digging, digging down to see the beliefs that create the emotions that are being blocked and you find out that one belief has been running some of your show your entire life. That is a come-to-Jesus moment.

“You strip down to the foundation and break out the mortar. I don’t know. For me this period has really been about looking at my weaknesses and failures and owning my side of the street. I’m an asshole when it comes to this need for justice. I don’t know where it comes from, this hollow quest for justice for some perceived slight. I can drill on that for days and years. It’s done me no good whatsoever. It’s such a silly idea, the idea that the world is fair. And this is coming from a guy who hit the lottery, I’m well aware of that. I hit the lottery, and I still would waste my time on those hollow pursuits.” – Brad Pitt

Justice means-“just behavior or treatment.” -Google

We think that if we behave in a certain way, there is an expectation that others should also behave in that way. Life is unfair. We think we need to have justice and we don’t see that it turns into judgement and then who is right and wrong. Round and round we go, where it stops nobody knows. This is Karma. It will never end until you stop and look at yourself. You will see that part of the perception of another is actually you. By making another wrong, you make yourself right. You then win and what is it we get out of winning? Redemption. Self worth. Another day you don’t have to look at yourself and your own issues.

Am I saying that others always behave and act with integrity? No, but you can. This is true growth but you have to heal the shadows. The things that are eclipsed. The things that are hidden from our own view. You can only work on yourself.

“Sitting with those horrible feelings, and needing to understand them, and putting them into place. In the end, you find: I am those things I don’t like. That is a part of me. I can’t deny that. I have to accept that. And in fact, I have to embrace that. I need to face that and take care of that. Because by denying it, I deny myself. I am those mistakes. For me every misstep has been a step toward epiphany, understanding, some kind of joy. Yeah, the avoidance of pain is a real mistake. It’s the real missing out on life. It’s those very things that shape us, those very things that offer growth, that make the world a better place, oddly enough, ironically. That make us better.” – Brad Pitt 

“It’s a different world, too. We know more, we’re more focused on psychology. I come from a place where, you know, it’s strength if we get a bruise or cut or ailment we don’t discuss it, we just deal with it. We just go on. The downside of that is it’s the same with our emotion. I’m personally very retarded when it comes to taking inventory of my emotions. I’m much better at covering up. I grew up with a Father-knows-best/war mentality—the father is all-powerful, super strong—instead of really knowing the man and his own self-doubt and struggles. And it’s hit me smack in the face with our divorce: I gotta be more. I gotta be more for them. I have to show them. And I haven’t been great at it.”-Brad Pitt

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Photo of Mr. Pitt from: http://www.gq.com/story/brad-pitt-gq-style-cover-story

We cannot be strong if we deny. Real strength comes from acceptance not being fake and I am not talking about whiny,  reality TV, crying drama. We see enough of that on a daily basis. Real heart emotions will transform you. Your female side will be strong. This is the only way to be balanced and it is a daily job. Look at who is reflecting your female and male sides back to you…

Mr. Pitt has this quote on his arm. “There exists a field, beyond all notions of right and wrong. I will meet you there.” -Rumi

This is hopefully the road that he is taking steps to become on his soul journey. The only way to be one within, is to be balanced with the male and female energies. This is the challenge and calling of us all. It is time to rise up to greatness, feel it all and heal the heart….xoxo

To read the full article on Brad Pitt here: http://www.gq.com/story/brad-pitt-gq-style-cover-story

Quotes from Brad Pitt via GQ and PHOTOGRAPHS BY 

 

Holistic Corner: Winds of Change

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The picture above has been my view for almost two years. I have loved getting up every day and looking at a forest out my window, seeing the trees standing like they are family surrounding me with love. I will miss them.

Things are rocking and rolling energy wise for the last six months or maybe even longer. I have had many shifts especially in the way that things that are no longer working for me are headed out, or being re framed with a different perspective.

I had been sensing a move coming again and as I feel that energy, I always start looking intensely to things around me, the area that I have been in, the people that I have met and the things I have learned since I have been traveling. First to California and now here in North Carolina. West coast and East coast have totally different energies.

Things are changing and will continue to change in the world.

This is really what you want even if you don’t think you do. We always say, ” I want things to change.” with things that we don’t like in our life but we don’t want things to change that we love. Like losing a loved one, losing a friendship, our health, someone moving away, illness, etc.

This is earth and it is always in a constant state of flux. This quote came across my path this morning, that really hits it.

“Somehow, in the process of trying to deny that things are always changing, we lose our sense of the sacredness of life. We tend to forget that we are part of the natural scheme of things.” – Pema Chodron

As we grow as humans, things will always change in our life, this is why it is so important to live in the moment. Enjoy the moments you have with someone, the place where you are, things that you take for granted. Be appreciative for your LIFE.

My outdated thoughts has really been under fire lately within myself.  I have been digging within to change some long ingrained patterns. You cannot change your patterns unless you look at what created them in the first place, where they came from and what is causing you to think them.  One question to ask yourself is: Does that thought serve your highest self or the lower one?

Having to catch yourself in your thinking is sometimes seems difficult but once you start doing it, you will see all of the thoughts that might need to be changed or corrected. It can be quite overwhelming but just take it slow. We all have them, sometimes they are angry, judgmental or fear based and can be directed at yourself or others. They could have been created by getting hurt or might have been learned from someone else.

Thoughts create emotions.

Emotions create actions.

This time away from what I call home base has really taught me a lot. I have seen and done quite a few learning things to further my evolvement as a soul.  From watching people age, to watching energy psychic surgery, to spending time learning from a strong medicine woman, ocean trips, Louisiana, Washington DC and South Carolina. All of these things make me change on some level. Sometimes the growing seems to be difficult and hard. You get used to unhealthy patterns that are working for you on some level. Some of those patterns that you say need to be changed scare you when you really address getting rid of them. They are helping you in some way but in another way, they are keeping you stuck.

It is up to you to decide if they are hurting you or helping you grow. If things are not changing, look at your thoughts and emotions.

You can choose to take everything that has happened to you and further your growth or it can make you spin out of control and stop.

As one of my teachers leaves a house that I have also called home for over 10 years this week, I find myself feeling sad. Sad because I will not have anymore time with her there, it has been so special and such a learning for me but all things change and you can either go with the flow of it or you can stay stuck wishing that it didn’t. It is important to feel the sadness and let it out but know that you need to move with the change. Feel what you need to feel and release and then move on.

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I choose to grow and will have more special time with her somewhere else, who knows it might even be better?! That is the thing, you have to let go of things, allow them to change in order for new things to come in.

It is spring and this is exactly what happens in the seasons.

A Time for Everything:

“There is an appointed time for everything.  And there is a time for every event under heaven ~
2 A time to give birth, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace. -Ecclesiastes 3

May you plant new seeds of abundance, joy and happiness this spring and release all the dead, decaying things that no longer serve you….Happy Spring….xoxo

Holistic Corner: Rise up

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As I sit here on 11:11 the most energy mastery of days, a lot has happened in the last week, with the presidential election and the upset of that, I am sure has everyone with feelings and minds at odds with each other.

Why was this election so important? Because it shows where we still need to work on ourselves and our nation.

It really showed the shadows of both sides of America. One had to come up stronger than the other.

It showed me that what comes up needs healing in ourselves and one another.

I didn’t particularly like either candidate but lesser of two evils were what it boiled down to in my  own mind. The lessor of the shadows coming up for healing.

Narcissist and liars both come to my mind when talking about either one. Both had good qualities and both had bad. One male and one female.

Just like us.

I notice that Americans are getting more vocal, we are demanding what we think is right, fair and just but at what cost to another human? Being right is subjective sometimes, based on past conditioning and experience.

It seems that we are collectively trying to learn and maintain balance between the two sides of polar opposites and we couldn’t have had it on larger scale than the presidential election.

As I write this, there has been riots and petitions. Upsets in almost every household, either on one side or the other.

How can we expect our government to come together for the good of everyone if we cannot think that way in our own minds?

Some are scared and have fear with good reason. Fear and the name of God has been mis-used to manipulate and control things for eons and I am sure will continue long after we are gone. There is always something to work on here in earth school.

The balance between light and darkness is a delicate one, all you can do is “rise” above it within your own self.

Service to yourself and service to others, there has to be some type of balance.

“Moral choices are discussed through the concept of polarity. Ra explains that there are two polarities: service to self, and service to others. These two polarities approximately relate to the everyday concepts known as evil and good, or selfishness and altruism.  

“Service to Others” is described in terms of an energy center configuration where the green-ray center radiates out toward other beings. This results are compassion, love feelings, and acts of service toward others.  

“Service to Self” is described in terms of an energy center configuration where the green-ray center is pointed mainly inward. This energy center configuration causes the entity to feel love for itself, but not for others. These feelings lead to self-serving intentions and actions, or “service to self.”

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I thought it was interesting that Hillary wore purple for her address to her supporters. Red and Blue make purple. Unity. The blending of two colors, two sides and two visions.

“Purple is the most powerful visible wavelength of electromagnetic energy.  It’s just a few steps away from x-rays and gamma rays. Perhaps this explains why purple is associated with supernatural energy and the cosmos than with the physical world as we know it.

Taking all aspects of purple’s past and present into consideration, purple symbolizes magic, mystery, spirituality, the sub-conscious, creativity, dignity, royalty – and it evokes all of these meanings more so than any other color.” -www.colormatters.com

How do you within yourself bring unity? With understanding the Law of One. We are all ONE. We all come from the same God.

“Within The Law of One, “The Creator” is not described as an external entity, as Earthly religious texts present in order for men to understand. Instead, “The Creator” is rather an all pervasive intelligent energy, that is both within everything that exists and without, thus the indivisible oneness, that the philosophy describes. Underlying the perception of separation, utilized for learning, is an indivisible oneness.”- infiniteshift.wordpress.com

I had a dream election week of a solar eclipse and I was trying to take a photo of it. In my eye, I could see that the rays of the sun were all different colors coming in and they feed all of our energy fields, continually, all the time. To everyone else in my dream, the light was just white and they could see that it was “shadowed” by the eclipse but I kept asking, “Why can’t you see the colors?.” One answered, “I have no idea what you are talking about.”

What is an eclipse? An absence of light. In order to see a shadow the light has been eclipsed.

“an obscuring of the light from one celestial body by the passage of another between it and the observer or between it and its source of illumination.

“an eclipse of the sun” synonyms: blotting out, blocking, covering, obscuring, concealing, darkening; occultation

“a loss of significance, power, or prominence in relation to another person or thing.

“the election result marked the eclipse of the traditional right and center”

synonyms: decline, fall, failure, decay, deterioration, degeneration, weakening, collapse”

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Think about what happened this week, a shadow took over to block the light. All of the hate, anger, fear, unjust, etc. came up to rear it’s head and show us what we are hiding in our shadow. It really isn’t about who won or lost, it’s about what is hiding in each of us, male or female. Hillary and Trump. You can point out what they are hiding, what are you hiding?

Look at how you have behaved this week after and before the election. What came up most for you? Was it the racist shadow? Was it the non-tolerance shadow? Was it the righteous shadow? What about the judgmental shadow? Was it the un-equality shadow? That is the shadow you need to work on within yourself. Whatever lower vibration you were expressing, is what you need to look at.

The morning of the election I had a song in my head when I woke up called, ”Rise Up” by Andra Day.

We all have to RISE UP, rise above the anger, the hate, the fear! RISE UP and look at your own shadow, your own darkness, your own eclipse.

Use this greatest time in American history to RISE above Hillary and Trump, they were only the messengers to show you, your own shadows.

Bring them out and transmute them with love into the light. You must love your shadow to transform it and then to change it.

That is where your free will comes in. You always have a choice to react with love or fear at any given moment.

My teacher is in India, helping children and she had this message for me a few days ago..

“Keep breaking through, loving you.”-Swami

I took that as I need to keep breaking through, loving myself. Keep breaking through all the shadows that block and eclipse the love for myself and love that I need to have for others…May we all RISE UP and keep breaking through……xoxo

Rise up- Andra Day

“Rise Up”

You’re broken down and tired
Of living life on a merry-go-round
And you can’t find the fighter
But I see it in you so we gonna walk it out
And move mountains
We gonna walk it out
And move mountains

And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
And I’ll rise up
High like the waves
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you [4x]

When the silence isn’t quiet
And it feels like it’s getting hard to breathe
And I know you feel like dying
But I promise we’ll take the world to its feet
And move mountains
Bring it to its feet
And move mountains
And I’ll rise up
I’ll rise like the day
I’ll rise up
I’ll rise unafraid
I’ll rise up
And I’ll do it a thousand times again
For you [4x]

All we need, all we need is hope
And for that we have each other
And for that we have each other
We will rise
We will rise
We’ll rise, oh oh
We’ll rise

I’ll rise up
Rise like the day
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I will rise a thousand times again
And we’ll rise up
High like the waves
We’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
We’ll rise up
And we’ll do it a thousand times again
For you oh oh oh oh oh [3x]

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