It has been awhile since I have written anything for the blog.
I have been gone on deployment with FEMA, the double hurricanes at the end of the summer and into fall. I didn’t even get home but right before thanksgiving.
Disaster always puts you in a different mind-set. It is all about survival. All of the things we take for granted on a daily basis become the most important things to us. Food, Water, Shelter, Electricity, Gas and Love. These are the things that are most needed. All of the other things fall away for a time. You are worried how you are going to eat and how your going to stay hot or cold with no electric and how you are going to get food if you have no gas or no gas to get away in the coming storm.
It is a tremendous amount of stress to be had by all. The people affected and the people going in after it happens to recover. You are running on adrenaline for weeks. The stress and the emotions are in the air, hanging like fruit. That energy has to be discharged and transmuted back into the earth. I feel like that is what natural disasters are in a sense. Clearing energies that need to be cleared off the lands. If we get full and heavy, can you imagine what the earth has to hold and transmute with all of our thoughts and emotions on a daily basis. Just think about that for a second…
One thing it makes you really aware of is life. How fragile it is and how it can be gone in an instant.
When I came home this time, I was fried. This hit me a bit harder than ones I had been on before, maybe because it was so long or so big. My part in it is small compared to others parts that they play, I am a baby in the disaster world.
One thing is for certain, you don’t realize how much of the energy that you take on until you go home and thaw out. I started trembling and buzzing about a week before I came home, I knew I needed a break. When you have empathy for people, you don’t realize that you put yourself in their shoes and feel what they FEEL and when you are seeing a lot of people and including the energy of the land, which I am just learning about as a healer, you really have no idea what goes on with the vibrations of everything.
I got a crash course this time.
I do the normal things that I have been taught to do for protection. Pray, visualize and essential oils but you cannot protect yourself from life. Life happens. Death happens. Disaster happens. To everyone. It really is about how you get through it.
One lady really stuck out in my mind and not for a reason that you would think.
She was really shaken up, and it’s not like I don’t see this ALL the time. I mean, everyone is upset, EVERY PERSON you come into contact with is UPSET.
This lady though was an interesting case. She had no damage to her residence, she was able to get out safely and she had no family members that were hurt. What she was upset about was her plants outside. They were demolished. She was sitting on her porch when I arrived, visibly shaking and crying. Her husband was trying to talk to her with no avail.
I sat down next to her on the porch. Her husband got up and left us, after I told them who I was. You could tell he didn’t know what to do with her and was losing patience with her upset as he rolled his eyes.
I let her cry and talk. She talked about how she had nursed these plants for years and years and that they were her babies and now they were all dead. DEAD, she said. I took her hand and said, ” Come and look at this plant. You see the roots are still there and there is green still on them. They are not dead but they have been through a trauma and will need lots of love, sun and water to recover but because the root is still there, it will still grow back, maybe better than before.”
She looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, ” So you think they will recover?” I said, ” Yes, I do, and these other plants will as well, they have strong roots from you taking care of them, their entire lives. The love that you give them will see them through.”
She stopped crying. I gave her a hug and said that statement that you always say. “Everything is going to be OK, even if you don’t think it is. Let the earth and the people heal and all will be well. It is just going to take some time.”
So many times we respond with anger in trauma because we are scared ourselves. Anger is secondary to fear. I remember when my mother died. People told me that everything would be OK, I said, ” You all are stupid. It will never be OK.” I resisted the flow of life for a long time, rebelled, tried to keep my anger at life.
Today, it is OK and after many years, I can remember good things now. Allow the joy of life to come back and not just see the sadness, destruction and disaster. It’s important to get to the other side of trauma and not get stuck in it. You have to allow the trauma to be witnessed. It has to be felt and then worked through. You have to feel safe to release trauma. SAFE. This is something that after a disaster you don’t feel for a long while. People lose their entire lives that they have built. It is very traumatizing. It can affect everyone differently. It can be a small as losing a house plant and as big as losing a house. The remedy is all the same. LOVE. COMPASSION. The basic necessities of life that we all need.
We all have had a disaster in some form or another in our lives and usually, but not always, this is why we are not very nice.
So the next time you encounter a jack ass, try responding different and let me know how it goes. Maybe just try for Christmas. Try it with your family, who is always a trigger of all your unhealed stuff. Try it with your co-worker that drives you nuts. Try to put yourself in their shoes to see how really hard it is to be them, being a jack ass on a daily basis. Really it takes A LOT of energy to be that way even if some people make it look easy. ; )
Maybe, just maybe some hearts will be healed and who wouldn’t want that for Christmas right?….xoxo
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